failure.

I started this blog to occupy my time and to share my life with the world. I know I don’t really ever say much thats super private, but I think you deserve to know why I started, posted twice a week, dedicated my free time to blogging, photographing, and whatever else I was doing, but all while I was trying to distract myself I happened upon the job that saved my life. LITERALLY. As you know [or will now know] I have anxiety, depression, and OCD. cute. Lots of diagnosed, “disorders” and they really get in the way of a normal life sometimes. but what really is normal. ME. I’m normal. Sometimes ab-normal, sometimes kinda normal, and sometimes not at all normal, but regardless.. here I am living life just like the rest of you.

My mom came to visit me here in the [sort of] north.. which is really more like the middle of the lower peninsula of Michigan [aka the greatest state that ever was]. And we hopped around town and happened upon a place that was hiring. A place that was RIGHT up my alley. A Bakery. YEP. I am now going by the title; small business owner, sometimes blogger, cat mom, bullet journal novice, wife, graphic designer, cake & cookie decorator extraordinaire. YES. I KNOW. pretty exciting right. SO I’ve been busy working OUT OF MY HOUSE, making friends, BEING IN THE REAL WORLD, WITH HUMANS. FULL TIME. Like, not sitting around feeling sorry for myself and hiding behind a computer. Its been the best thing that I could have asked for I think, and I wasn’t even searching for it. It just happened.

SO, now I look back on this blog I started about a year ago with less than 100 followers, probs ZERO people even care, but I DO. and I failed. I just kind of abandoned it. I wish I could have posted like, once a week, or two weeks, or even a month. I didn’t fall out of love with my blog, I just fell in love with something else, more. sorry. forgive me? I’ll be back now and then, with really fun content. I PROMISE. kisses.

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Every winter my girlfriends and I go on a trip up north to my BFF’s house in Grand Marais, Michigan [yep, wayyyy up there] and enjoy the winter wonderland. Each year, is always more eventful than the last. No matter what happens its loads of laughs, stories, and best of all time spent away from social media [no cell service], boys [not invited], and all the distractions we have in our lives now that we are kind of adults.

I’ve been into cookies & I made these cookies for our trip, and also airbrushed some personalized sweaters with everyones personality & names. For a recipe on cookies that hold their shape, click here.Β Super fun.

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If you wanted to see the bridge, today wasn’t the best day to do it.

If you wanted to cross the bridge, today wasn’t the best day to do it either.

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The bridge was closed due to weather during our Grand Marais Weekend. It kinda made history because its only been closed 19 times in its entire existence and there we were trying to cross it during the week it closed 3 other times. Really wild.

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How excited we were to be crossing the bridge and uniting with the other half of our friends on the trip. I designed GRLS WKND shirts, and each letter is something iconic about our adventures in the Upper Peninsula. I thought I was so clever.

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Sorry I made you take so many photos. I’m also sorry for the loss of a loved one, and that you couldn’t attend. They say if you’ve been friends for 10 years, you’ll be friends for life.Β These girls are great. I think I’ll keep em. I just hope they’ll keep me.

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Travel is important. Its good for the soul. Its also good for the soul when you can reunite with some people that you love the most. Kisses.

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Boxed Cake Upgrade

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Life tip: NEVER try a new recipe before you are going to take it somewhere. Do a trial run because you are bound to learn something about bake time, too much this or that, and maybe that the recipe was an entire flop anyway.

March is the month of birthdays in this family, and my husband’s was March 24th. I needed to make something quick so I resorted to a boxed cake from the grocery. I also got a tub of chocolate frosting, because his favorite is yellow cake with chocolate frosting. [Note: One tub of frosting made 12 cupcakes. The cake mix made 16. If you don’t want to resort to naked cake or using buttercream you whip up at home, buy two tubs if you are going to frost them like I did.] Idk who made up this combo, but I really don’t get it. BUT, he loves it, so I made it.

Screen Shot 2018-03-27 at 2.52.55 PMI wanted these cakes to be semi non box like, so I used a decorating tip 1M. [Wilton brand] I know theres a million tips and names, but compare it to your collection. It looks like this.

My husband’s favorite colors are blue & purple. It’s hard to not make purple girly, so I went with a blue, green, purple sprinkle combo situation. I found this set that had the big dot sprinkles in several colors and threw those in a bowl with some nonperiels of matching colors.

[Tip: I put my tip in the bag and cut it accordingly, and then I put it in a giant glass and fold the extra part of the bag over the edges of the cup. This makes for much easier piping bag filling.] Swoop the frosting on top of your cupcake and put the sprinkles on right after. If you do all the frosting first, your sprinkles will not stick. I don’t have any tutorial for how to swoop frosting, but I’m hopefully going to get my act together and put something out for you to follow.

I hope something I said was helpful in some way and know you aren’t alone box cake makers of America. If I didn’t tell you, you’d never know.

Kisses.

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Garden Variety. Healthy.

Garden Variety. Salad.

Here are two salads I’d eat [lets be realistic here] 2x a week. Like each one, one time. Other than that I’m an Alfredo eating, popcorn popping, banana and peanut butter, cottage cheese and blueberries kinda girl. I’m a grazer, if you will. Just munching through life. Also, hating salads cause in Michigan its 10 degrees for months & I just want to eat something hot. Here’s my favorite salads anyway.

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Garden Variety. Serves 1.Β 
1 Compari Tomato
1 Baby Cucumber [I only like these because the skin isn’t hard like normal sized ones]
1/4 Orange Pepper
4 Baby Carrots
1/2 head chopped romaine lettuce
1 large handful baby spinach/spring mix [comes in a box combined at my local grocery]
Feta Crumbles [optional]
Dressing of your choice. I prefer an Italian. I REALLY prefer Olive Garden Italian. Which I can find at my local grocery. [super tight]

— I’m not about to tell you how to make a salad, cause… you know. But I chop the lettuce up pretty good & any of the other baby spinach/spring mix greens that are large & I ditch all the stems.
— Cut your veggies however, but [pictured above] is how I prefer mine. I also will sea salt my tomatoes if I don’t care about my cholesterol that day.
— Sprinkle everything all pretty & cute on top of your lettuce/baby spinach/spring mix. If you can do dairy, aren’t vegan, or lactose I’ll add some feta if I have some as well.
— I measure my dressing out according to the label and only use one serving, it’s usually 2 tablespoons for a serving. If you don’t measure it out all that added sugar in the dressing will become your whole day’s allowance if you aren’t careful.

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Raspberry. Strawberry. Blueberry. Whatever I have in my fridge.

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In Michigan we can’t always get the BEST produce. BUT this is my favorite salad and the grocery occasionally has excellent strawberries in the middle of winter, if they have blueberries, I’ll also throw those in. This time, I was not so lucky.

Strawberry Pecan Salad. Serves 1.
4-5 Strawberries
Crush Pecans [heaping tablespoon or so]
Small handful of blueberries [if available]
Dried Cranberries [heaping tablespoon or so]
1/2 head chopped romaine lettuce
1 large handful baby spinach/spring mix [comes in a box combined at my local grocery]
Feta Crumbles [optional]
Dressing of your choice. I use [and will only use] Raspberry Vinaigrette from Kraft. Super fancy. I know. and I only use the 1 serving allowance because there’s a LOT of added sugar in the dressing, and this salad naturally has a lot of sugar from the fruits. I’ve heard some people use balsamic vinaigrette, but I tried it once and threw the whole thing out. But you do you.

Sorry this salad has no real measurements. It’s just how big the salad is, and how much fruit/ad ins you want.

I LOVE & live by these salads. They are actually salads I crave [which for me is absolutely wild] I hope you enjoy! Leave a comment about your favorite salad! I’d love to try some different ones & fall in love with others. Kisses.

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Bullet Journal. March/April 2018.

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I basically failed at showing anyone what I was doing all of March. SO SORRY. Idk. March just came and things happened and now its basically over. I wish I could share more of my bullet journal, but I didn’t realize how much of it is actually pretty private. Maybe I’ll throw some things in photoshop and blur out what I don’t want you to see, because its kind of a shame I do all this work for just me to look at. I kind of would like to share it with the world, or at least my few loyal followers. [and don’t forget I love you, cause with out you, there would be no-one in the world that gave two shits about basically anything I write about, and the fact that you do, is pretty cool.]

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I’m not sure what it was about these palm trees, but I loved them so much! If you didn’t read my post a few days back… I went to Florida. We go to this cute little condo the same week every year to see the beach & my grandparents. They live about 20 min. inland so we’ll go to their favorite place and have pie that sucks and try to convince my grandma to wear her hearing aid. For people who are 86 & 88 years old, its kind of incredible they are as self sufficient as they are. My grandpa especially. He doesn’t say much, but when he does its great. He’s witty as all hell and I can’t get enough.

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Please don’t look at my nails. It’s my mid-March resolution to try to stop biting them and grow them to normal length like a real adult. I started biting them in the 5th grade, and here I am 20 years later, still doing it. Its an anxiety thing, I know it. You know it. The world knows it, and I’ve quit like 7 times and rewarded myself with a 9$ essie nail polish and I’m so successful and then something tragic happens and I find my nails back in my mouth. Its super gross, and you think that alone would get me to quit, but sadly.. it has not.

WELCOME APRIL. This month I tried using some markers instead of my prisma colored pencils. These markers are two sided, one is a regular like pen side, and the other is a brush side. They were cheap. They don’t bleed through the paper and you can buy yourself a set at Target here. The other markers I use are a black micron pen. They come in a million different sizes, but I use .4mm and .35 mm I believe. Check out my intro post that has more about tools here.

What does your April look like? I always take my photos before I fill in my family/friends birthdays and actually activities planned cause, I really don’t need you knowing where I am every second. BUT, I’ll be here Tuesday/Thursday at 5 pm unless I’m depressed, or its raining. Kisses.

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Lyin’ cold on the bathroom floor

Lyin’ cold on the bathroom floor cause she’s sick AF. IDK whats wrong with me. I swear every time I go in public I end up with some disgusting bug. [maybe not every time, but too often.] Last night I spent too many hours over the porcelain throne. Probs not what you wanted to hear, but today I’m slightly recovered. I hate half a bagel & 4 sips of gatorade and we’re making progress.

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[shoes pictured are Steve Madden Mules. I bought mine on www.stevemadden.com but I’ve also seen them on DSW. Idk if they are still available or not. sorry.]

Basically all that this sickness reminded me that I didn’t swiffer my bathroom floor yesterday. Does anyone else with a wild beast [aka super furry cat] need to sweep everyday? Does anyone just cry and wish their mom was there to take care of them when they are sick? Cause, Same. Sorry if you read this and thought it sucked, cause today sucks for me too. No Kisses today. Trying not to infect ya.

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Cha, Cha, Cha Changes

IMG_8684Here we are, [kinda] getting some sight of spring, and so not only did I decide to spring clean my home & paint my small bathroom.. I decided it was about time for a hair change. I loved my pastel pink and purple princess vibes, but now that I’m approaching 30 faster than ever, I decided I should spring clean the color & leave it behind. It’s a lot of work to keep up with, and I can’t do anything for too long and I had color that doesn’t grow out of my head [or anyone’s rather] since August.

I wasn’t sure where this new vibe would take me, but as I sat in the chair.. my wonderful hair dresser Cindi, knew I was coming in with a plan.

IMG_8683This is exactly what I look like in public. Bomber jacket. T shirt. Jeans. I’m very fashionable. I know. Side note: If you find any cool pins I can add to this jacket, please let me know cause I’m always on the hunt & I change them each season. The snowflake, has GOT TO GO. BYE [insert peace sign here].

Just like my hair I have bright and shiny days, and then frizzy chaotic wild days where nothing goes right. As I age, I was given the whole laundry list of [mental health disorders]. I really don’t like to think of myself as a disorder, but rather.. just different. Yesterday was sunny and [semi] warm. Today is cold & rainy. I don’t care what anyone says, the weather 100% effects my mood. I know this paragraph has nothing to do with my hair, but sometimes you just have to say what comes up, and my mind never stops and is always thinking about something. Mostly unrelated to whats actually happening. Now a certain human can’t comment on my “trashy purple hair” anymore. Cause, obvs. I do my hair to please you. [eye roll]. ANYWAY. Here’s the [new] me. Shiny. Fresh. Chic.

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Hello Spring. As per usual wearing Stila Stay All Day liquid lipstick in “Baci”

Kisses.

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